Obsessive Law Student

You know those mistakes you make that, based on past experiences with other similar mistakes, you know are mistakes when, or sometimes before, you're making them and you know that afterwards you're going to feel horrible and you'll wish you had never done exactly what you're doing and what you're about to do? And you know how you ignore that little voice in your head and make the mistake anyhow and in the morning you feel like shit and you wonder if you're ever going to learn from all your past mistakes? And then you know how you make a pledge to yourself that you're not going to make that same mistake again ever? And you're especially not going to make the exact same mistake with the exact same person. And then you know how you are really good about not making that mistake for a really long time. And then you get overly-confident about your ability not to make that mistake, particularly with the same person, and you start to let your guard down and you're more open with your heart and you don't think you're going to make the same mistake so you don't care about being as careful and then because of your carelessness, you end up making the exact same mistake you swore you would not make a long time ago with the exact same person you know is a deadly mistake?

Yeah.

And now, I'm kicking myself not just because I made the same mistake but because I frigging made it with NMMW. Um, hello, self: there's a reason he's not your Mr. Wonderful.

Seriously, today sucks.